Las Vegas
| uradzukerareta mono ga hoshii baransu o nozomu wake ja nai atashi wa mada shinde wa inai sukima o umeru hana ga hoshii michite mo mahi suru bakari ja nai atashi wa mada shinde wa inai shinde wa inai kono kuuhaku wa atashi dake no mono kodoku mo yowane mo subete atashi ga aisanakute dare ga ai suru? atashi ga aisanakereba dare ga sore o ai suru no? kurayami o aruku honoo ga hoshii yokei na dake no chikara wa iranai shidai ni mata tachiagareru tachiagareru kono sabishisa wa atashi dake no mono itami ya kotoba ni taeru tame atashi ga aisanakute dare ga ai suru? atashi wa kotae nanka ja nai shi me no mae ni tsudzuku chi o tada yuku tame atashi ga aisanakute dare ga ai suru? atashi ga aisanakereba dare ga sore o ai suru no? kizukuchi o terasu hikari ga hoshii donna kage ni mo obietari wa shinai atashi wa mada shinde wa inai shinde wa inai kono kuuhaku wa atashi dake no mono kodoku mo yowane mo subete atashi ga aisanakute dare ga ai suru? atashi wa namae nanka ja nai shi kazari ya mokei nanka ja nai atashi ga aisanakute dare ga ai suru? atashi ga aisanakereba dare ga sore o ai suru no? |
I want something that’s been verified It’s not that I’m wishing for balance I’m not dead yet I want flowers to bury in these holes It’s not that I’m wholly paralyzed even when they’re full I’m not dead yet Not dead This blank space is mine alone The loneliness, the complaints, all of it With me not loving them, who will? If I don’t love them, who will love all that? I want a flame to walk through darkness I don’t need any unnecessary strength Gradually, I’ll be able to stand up again I’ll be able to stand up This loneliness is mine alone So that I can put up with the pain, the words With me not loving them, who will? It’s not that I’m anything like the answer So that I just keep going along the earth that spreads out before me With me not loving them, who will? If I don’t love them, who will love all that? I want light to illuminate my wounds No matter what shadows there are, I won’t be afraid I’m not dead yet Not dead This blank space is mine alone The loneliness, the complaints, all of it With me not loving them, who will? It’s not that I’m anything like a name, nothing like a decoration, a mannequin With me not loving them, who will? If I don’t love them, who will love all that? |
Song info: The song is named after Angelina Jolie. It was written when she was around 20. Her then-producer strongly advised her to change the chorus part, but she didn't. Now she thinks she made a good decision in not following his advice.
Chihiro's liner notes: The oldest song on this album. I had already written the first half of it earlier, and I added the second half this time.
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